I can't help detesting my relations.我不由得讨厌我的那些亲戚.From to realistic condition detesting and rejecting, then pursue mind abyss strange pleasure.从对现实状态的厌弃, 进而追求心灵深渊的奇诡乐趣....

v.憎恶，嫌恶，痛恨( detest的现在分词 )...

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